Update

Omg, I'm worried about Josh. It's not as bad as it was before because his mom just texted me and told me he will explain later. But I haven't heard from him in days. You must know how much I rely on him for help with my problems. I need to know. Being in the dark does not bode well with me. God, please let me find out soon.
Well an update on me since it's been a while. Things are ok I guess. I haven't cut, which is good, although I've wanted to and have been crying a LOT lately. I don't get it. Oh and Josh got back with Stepany, his ex. Ugh. And he ran away, but I think something's happened because his mom texted me. But when he ran away I was talking to him and I swear he said this out of no where, "I love you sara". He said that and I had only told him I wish I was with him. Of course I told him it back, because it's true. I love him.
Oh and Mike's up to his old tricks with me since my mom kicked out my cousin and her mother (it's a long story, all you need to know is they are now our next-door neighbors). Yeah he was starting with me because I went for a walk and changed my mind about where I was going. I fully told my brother and mom, but nooooo, he seems to think I'm a slut and went out to whore around. And it all accumulated into me telling him he's not my daddy and I'm not going to listen to him. Then my mom told me to walk to the store so I wouldn't do something I was going to regret (and by regret like hurting mike, as I'm not going to cut if I can help it because I don't want to lose Josh), and she would come get me (she was in town).
Well that's about it. ttyl. lol