Tired. But I'm in high spirts. I'm listening to Eminem's "Lose Yourself", which is one of my new favorite songs. On top of the fact that I've got to see John the last two days in a row (Wednesday and Thursday) and I hope I get to see him today. We're trying to see if me and Bubba can spend the night, since my mom is going out tonight and wants to leave us somewhere. It's either their house or Diane's, my mom's counin. I would really rather be at his house. But even if I don't, I'm going to see him tomorrow because he's going to take me fishing with him and his sister and her bf.
I just hope I get to see him tonight. It all depends on if Louis (John's stepdad) says ok.
Well, that's all for now I guess.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Ehhhhhh.....
Well I don't know if I've ever mentioned him before, but Charles is back. Ehhhh. He's a boy in my grade that's always been a pain, in a way. He can be ok sometimes, but usually he's a jerk. He was supposed to have left for Webster county and not come back. But appearntly he got in trouble and came back here. Great. I was hoping that my friend Willard had been joking when he said he saw Charles in the office yesterday. I guess not. Dammit.
I mean Charles is usually nice to my friend Kayla, but kinda iffy to me. Like today he was ok enough, but I think he made a pass at my weight, but tried to say he was talking about my intellegence. Right.
But I'm not going to let it bother me too much. I have a guy who likes me for me and thinks I'm beautiful no matter what I, or anyone, else says. I just wish everyone, including me, could be that way. But we're not so we've got to deal with it. On the note of John, I hope I get to see him tonight. I got to remember to call around 4 and ask if he can go to shurch with me tonight.
Man, they're going to be dismatling Revolution (which is what the teen church on Wednesdays is called) as I've known it for the past year. They're going to be completly splitting up the big group of middle- and highschoolers. For right now, we meet at the church and usually have to big message and then go to our respective small groups (seperated on gender and whether you're in high- or middle school). But now they say ,starting in June, that the small groups are going to split completly and just meet at someone's house on different days of the week. No more meeting at the church. Ugh. I'm sorry but I'm not going to that so I'm going to stop going when the new system starts. But till then I'm going to enjoy Revolution.
I also go on Sundays to the Pointe (the church's name), and I take John with me. Last Sunday I was having bladder problems, where I felt like I have to pee even when I don't and it's really uncomfortable and I only get relief in the bathroom. If anyone reads this, could you give me some ideas as to what is causing this? Thanks.
I guess this is all for now. Who knows I might post something else next period (yes, I'm in school. Ha). See ya.
I mean Charles is usually nice to my friend Kayla, but kinda iffy to me. Like today he was ok enough, but I think he made a pass at my weight, but tried to say he was talking about my intellegence. Right.
But I'm not going to let it bother me too much. I have a guy who likes me for me and thinks I'm beautiful no matter what I, or anyone, else says. I just wish everyone, including me, could be that way. But we're not so we've got to deal with it. On the note of John, I hope I get to see him tonight. I got to remember to call around 4 and ask if he can go to shurch with me tonight.
Man, they're going to be dismatling Revolution (which is what the teen church on Wednesdays is called) as I've known it for the past year. They're going to be completly splitting up the big group of middle- and highschoolers. For right now, we meet at the church and usually have to big message and then go to our respective small groups (seperated on gender and whether you're in high- or middle school). But now they say ,starting in June, that the small groups are going to split completly and just meet at someone's house on different days of the week. No more meeting at the church. Ugh. I'm sorry but I'm not going to that so I'm going to stop going when the new system starts. But till then I'm going to enjoy Revolution.
I also go on Sundays to the Pointe (the church's name), and I take John with me. Last Sunday I was having bladder problems, where I felt like I have to pee even when I don't and it's really uncomfortable and I only get relief in the bathroom. If anyone reads this, could you give me some ideas as to what is causing this? Thanks.
I guess this is all for now. Who knows I might post something else next period (yes, I'm in school. Ha). See ya.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Yes! I figured out how to finally get on here on the school's computers! Dumbass sdministration! Too bad they'll probably find out what site I used and just block it too... but untill then HA! I could also get on Facebook, if I wanted, but it's not very secure so I'm not trusting it... This I don't care as much about, especially since I have no one reading this.
:) I'm just happy to have a little bit more freedom at school. I mean I just suffered through my Math 1 EOCT (End of Course Test), which was probably some of the most boring hours of my life. I thought my brian was turning to mush. And I HATE math. But it's still not as bad as what John's going through. According to him, his tests, the CRCTs (I'm not sure what it stands for), have 300 questons. EACH. That's way more than I've ever had. Poor baby (shut up. He is my baby).
Anyway, I don't have much to say, since I just updated yesterday. Peace.
:) I'm just happy to have a little bit more freedom at school. I mean I just suffered through my Math 1 EOCT (End of Course Test), which was probably some of the most boring hours of my life. I thought my brian was turning to mush. And I HATE math. But it's still not as bad as what John's going through. According to him, his tests, the CRCTs (I'm not sure what it stands for), have 300 questons. EACH. That's way more than I've ever had. Poor baby (shut up. He is my baby).
Anyway, I don't have much to say, since I just updated yesterday. Peace.
Monday, April 26, 2010
God, I've Been Lazy
Wow, almost a month since my last post (not that it MATTERS, no one reads this). So much as happened. First off Dillion (or Blake or whatever you want to call him) stopped talking to me so I guess that means we're over...so sad. Not. I have someone new and BETTER. And guess what? He lives only 10 minutes away. I've seen him every weekend since we started going out a few weeks ago. His name is John <3 and he's with all honesty the best boyfriend I've ever had, and he's only 13. He treats me well and I think he fell in love with me when he first saw me. Anyway I'm not going to get all obsessive and devote all of this post to my new boyfriend.
Oh, Jef got locked on the hospital for going psycho and cutting himself and other, even grosser stuff that I do not wish to disclose. He was in there for about 3 weeks. He's now out and has his own place. Yay. Only downside is that he wants things to be like they were before I started dating John. They're not. He's always trying to talk to me like he did before and doesn't seem to get that I don't want to. It feels wrong. John's the only one I feel that way about now. I'm just too chicken shit to tell him...maybe I should call him soon and tell him (he got a phone and I have the number, I just haven't called him yet). Eh, hopefully I'll figure this out. I mean he still feels like my best friend, in a way. I mean he's the only one I've told about some things about my relationship (I'll let you mull that around your head for a while). I don't know what to do. Plus I haven't been feeling that great so it's harder. But I will survive. I guess.
Oh, I had to get a new phone a few weeks ago, so I lost EVERYTHING on my old one. The old one just cut off on me all of a sudden and wouldn't turn back on right. It would just show a black screen with the Verizon Wireless logo on it and would do nothing else. Ugh. Good thing I still had my warrenty. They replaced it for free. The only thing that wasn't a major pain was replacing my phone numbers. I'm so smart I actually thought to WRITE THEM DOWN somewhere. Yes, actual WRITING. Shocker. Well, this is boring now so I guess I'll wrap it up for now.
Oh, one more thing. I cut ONCE a few weeks ago, a few days after starting to date John. ONCE. But I still have the scars due to the fact I used double-edged razors. But hopefully I'm recovering since I haven't had an urge since. Hopefully.
Oh, Jef got locked on the hospital for going psycho and cutting himself and other, even grosser stuff that I do not wish to disclose. He was in there for about 3 weeks. He's now out and has his own place. Yay. Only downside is that he wants things to be like they were before I started dating John. They're not. He's always trying to talk to me like he did before and doesn't seem to get that I don't want to. It feels wrong. John's the only one I feel that way about now. I'm just too chicken shit to tell him...maybe I should call him soon and tell him (he got a phone and I have the number, I just haven't called him yet). Eh, hopefully I'll figure this out. I mean he still feels like my best friend, in a way. I mean he's the only one I've told about some things about my relationship (I'll let you mull that around your head for a while). I don't know what to do. Plus I haven't been feeling that great so it's harder. But I will survive. I guess.
Oh, I had to get a new phone a few weeks ago, so I lost EVERYTHING on my old one. The old one just cut off on me all of a sudden and wouldn't turn back on right. It would just show a black screen with the Verizon Wireless logo on it and would do nothing else. Ugh. Good thing I still had my warrenty. They replaced it for free. The only thing that wasn't a major pain was replacing my phone numbers. I'm so smart I actually thought to WRITE THEM DOWN somewhere. Yes, actual WRITING. Shocker. Well, this is boring now so I guess I'll wrap it up for now.
Oh, one more thing. I cut ONCE a few weeks ago, a few days after starting to date John. ONCE. But I still have the scars due to the fact I used double-edged razors. But hopefully I'm recovering since I haven't had an urge since. Hopefully.
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