I Get Too Lazy with this Thing

Look here. It's November already. Almost Thanksgiving. It's been a month and a half since I last posted. God I'm lazy. Then again, I haven't been to the library too much lately. Whatever.
Jeremiah has drifted more. He said we can't be friends at all and ignores me at school, save to text me what is for lunch. It hurts seeing him, since I still feel something for him. But I ignore it and avert my gaze... but can't help but look for him. I know that's tormenting myself, but I can't help it. I miss him. He was the best guy I was ever with. I just wish I meant as much to him. I still wish he had dumped me that Friday instead of the Monday. Because that Saturday in between is what made my liking grow into something more. And then he tells me we don't feel like a couple. Bull. But I'm depressing myself talking about this.

School has been bearable. I'm in student council as secretary if I haven't mentioned that before. Yay. I went to the first meeting this week. It wasn't that bad. I just need to type the notes (oh hell, I forgot them.). I don't want to focus on school too much while writing but will update a little further. I have a 97 average as of my last report card. Good for me. I'm in WIA, so I'm getting paid for that (although my mom takes all my money). Mrs. Harvey and Mrs. Rountree have paid my FBLA dues, so that's taken care of, and I will be passing out meals on Thanksgiving (not that it matters, we're not really celebrating). I have the next week off from school... We'll see how that goes.

I've been spending more time on Facebook than ever before. It's like my life-line. I created an account seperate from my other one. I write a lot on it when I want to cut (almost two weeks clean. Ever since Jeremiah decided he didn't care, I started again, but stopped for a reason I'll tell you about in a minute). I have met so many nice people, people that I care about. Like Ashley/Lexie/Adrianna (mpd). I love her like a sister, even if she seems like an attention seeking bitch sometimes. I have to remember that she hasn't told me everything yet, so I continue to support her. And David. The sweet Irish boy who really has a thing for me, but is blood bound to another girl. Did that stop us from having cybersex? Nope. He started it, and I didn't really like it. But you know me, I live to please. But it's been a while, so I'm hoping he'll let that drop. And Anthony. The one that honestly means the most to me. He's my best friend. We actually met through Ashley, when trying to cheer her up with randomness. I like Anthony. A lot. It might be even something stronger than liking, but I will not tell him that. He said he didn't want to hurt me like that. I agreed. But he promised to always be there if he could. He even gave me his cell number. I changed my text plan just so I could text him. I promised him I'd stop cutting. Not becasue he asked, but because he didn't. He even said he understood if I broke. I quit smoking for him too, even though he didn't ask. He's even learning a song on his guitar for me. How I wished we lived close. I hope one day to go see him. I really do.

I guess I could recount all the horrible things my mom's been doing (like spending all our money and taking my WIA pay) or the terrible things I've been thinking. Or I could leave on a happy note. I think I'll do the latter. See ya.

PS: I am trying to not have anything to do with Josh anymore. Yay for finally seeing the light.